Coming Clean
A few weeks ago I snuck away for a weekend vacation fling of sweaty, super freaky sex with this amazingly hot guy.
I’ve known Roberto for about six months. I met him right around the time things were imploding with Stavros. We were friends, but he’s always wanted to be more. At the time I was still madly in love with Stavros and hoping we’d work things out. I’d talk to Roberto about my problems with Stavros and Roberto was painfully direct in the fact that Stavros was only using me and never even really cared about me.
Roberto stopped speaking to me when I told him about the time back in February when me and Stavros hooked up. He told me that I was a weak woman and I was stupid for taking him back. Months went by and I dated a few other guys. One day out of the blue Roberto sent me a text. We resumed our friendship like nothing had ever happened and up to this point we’d never had sex. I kept resisting him, but over time he got harder and harder to resist. He was about 10 years older, but had a baby face and the body of a man half his age. He was sweet and attentive. Always concerned about my whereabouts and remembered the little things in my life. I found myself falling for him. He was perfect: Gorgeous, attentive, sweet, totally in to me, a good friend.
And oh yeah, he was married.
This is why I could not give in to him sexually. But one day it happened. We slept together. And it was fantastic. He was the first guy who made me forget about Stavros.
We continued to sleep together and Memorial Day weekend, him and his family went away on vacation. He invited me to come along agreeing to put me up in a hotel while I was there. It was totally insane but really exciting. He snuck away to meet me in the hotel and stayed nights with me. It was a really hot vacation fling. I know it sounds awful, but being in his arms and waking up with him made me feel something I hadn’t felt in a long time. I’m not in love with him. but I believe there is a certain intimacy I’ve been missing in my life. Something I wasn’t getting from Mr. Nice Guy, but the way Stavros used to hold me after sex and kiss me and caress my face.
I finally confessed to my best friend two months after we first started sleeping together. I usually tell her everything, but I’m not proud of myself. I really hate what I’m doing, but its hard to stop. Mr. Nice Guy knew I was seeing Roberto and that we went away together. He did not know until I confessed last weekend that Roberto was married. I was surprised by his reaction. He did not judge me. I think that’s part of what bothers me about Mr. Nice Guy he hides his emotions. I deserved to be judged and treated harshly but he didn’t do that.
This is not a good situation, but I’m not quite able to give it up just yet.
Posted on June 17, 2011, in Bad Relationships, Bad Sex, Cheating, Dating, Good sex, Relationships, Roberto, sex, Stavros, The Nice Guy and tagged Another married man, bad relationships, Cheating, cheating with a married man, dating an older man, infidelity, Mr. Nice Guy, On the Rebound, Relationships, sex, sex partners, Slut, Stavros, stigma, the other woman, Vacation fling. Bookmark the permalink. 6 Comments.
Interesting to read of your guilty pleasure in seeing this man. I find that I’m not that into sex with married or committed men. I need at least a possibility that the relationship might become more committed for the sex to be hot, but that’s just me. No judgment here.
Hey Liz,
I’m not ordinarily into guys that are committed either. They seem to really be into me though. I don’t, however, need to feel as though the relationship is going somewhere for the sex to be good. I do find though that sex is better that way.
I’m curious and have a couple of questions. They’re of a private nature but nowhere near as private as most of the content of your blog. How is your relationship with your father? Was there ever one? Who are you without the attention of a man? What is the longest amount of time you’ve spent without having sexual contact with a man? How long were you dating Stavros and why are you so broken up by not seeing him any more? Were you even dating him or just seeing him and sleeping together? It seemed as if being a mistress was a step you were unwilling to take in prior posts. Now it is. What’s changed?
Good questions Keith,
You’ve actually got me thinking about some things. If you’re okay with it, I’m going to address and answer all your questions in a separate blog post.
So how did he pull off staying the night with you while on the vacation? Was he servicing his wife as well?
Jack,
The city is his and his wife’s hometown, so whenever they go home to visit she stays at the house with her family and he stays at the house with his family. I guess she just thought that he was with his family. He spent the days with her, so she probably didn’t suspect anything.